February 2010
28 posts
Its so much easier to let you go then hold on to what is left. We all became someone we aren’t very proud of and what I would do to take it all back. I love the country side and the pretty flowers you would randomly send. The moments were never weak nor dry. It was simply magical.
January 2010
34 posts
Stranger days in January.
The sun is no longer out and it looks like you have become invisible. It’s all faded to grey and were slowly falling down. The world is constantly judging us, so its hard for me to find the ultimate happiness, but what I would do to have it with you. I take the moments to remember your little features, one day you will fade away. I cant dream without your eyes burning through, my...
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Under The Bridge- Red Hot Chili Peppers
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I don’t want anything to come between what could have been or should have been. My makeup is smudged and I have a headache from living the lie of last night. The flower was dead but now its bloomed and the trees are swaying, but there is no wind. If I cut it all up will the water weigh you out? Would you respond to the real story?
I start to catch your eye and then I lose my balance and breath. I have to remember how to breathe because I don’t want to mess up again, I dream away but that’s okay, I try to fool myself to be calm but I know that its not realistic, because the winter is closing and the sun is out and somehow this will make it all okay now.
The snow is barley falling but you claim your caught in a snow storm. I caught so many dreams last night that they are still making my mind go weak. Here is the truth to the effects you have within me. I am scared of your judgment because its your fault I am the way I am. I stare out at the lake wondering whats truly under that water. Lake Michigan is probably full of so many secrets that are...
The clock struck seven and the snow began to dance across my windshield. Wouldn’t it be nice if we could see the future and what was truly in store for us all. Its all so magical, the way one piece of snow could be the end of it all.
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The sun will rise and everyday its a little bit worse. My arms are sore from chasing these butterfly’s, wanting them to come to me. The grass is over grown but the ground is frozen, how does this occur in a world where the thermostat is set to 82 degrees? We all are melting at the flick of a switch and for some reason everything is still rather perfect within my mind.
14509.) I feel so low. I miss my mom and dad.
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Sometimes I wonder how life will end. Is all a single moment or does it drag on. I hope that someday the secrets we keep can be shared with the world for all to see. I don’t think that the things I keep thinking will ever happen, but I do know I want to see the sunrise with you again. I hope you know that the moments we share are something that we can’t replace. Everything we had was...
The way you held her gaze through out the crowded room was so strong. Your love is like a moment stuck in time. So beautiful and so full of meaning that it helps the rest of us believe. Do you want to loose it all over a stupid drug of your being that you don’t really need? Here we go again trying to help you escape. Tick toc the clock strikes ten and shes waiting but you should have called...
We get promised to many things. How do we take away from what the lies are truthfully saying. Be the one you know you are and dont cry with strangers who dont care.
14501.) I tell myself i'm beautiful, every single...
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Everything You Want- Vertical Horizon
Did your heart break a little when you found out she wasn’t coming home tonight? This is the second city that she is breaking hearts and playing these twisted games. She takes you in and grabs you under her spell, but it won’t work on you is what you kept saying. You so badly wanted to give her a taste of her own medicine but got swallowed hole by the lies and drinks.
You tore my words apart and tried to put them back together. As high as the moon is, is as high as my expectations that had been left to dust. Even with the messiest life we live, I still let it pull me down. Gravity was a train wreck waiting to happen and it showed up at your front door. We constantly change our mind like the wind chimes ring outside my window.
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Manchester Orchestra- Colly Strings. Beautiful.
Tears wasted.
The days are fading and my makeup beings to run, more than it did yesterday. You say that you don’t need me, but I am just some lonely bones that need to find some keeping. But tell me, was this really all your fault? We waste days, sitting here believing that this is the truth, but did you know that once we leave this place there is no where to run back to. Let me go this was all an act, I...
I took some notes today. All the words seemed to come together and I tried to understand what the message was saying. But nothing was meant to be understood. You stood there in your bright blue shirt, that was wrinkled from the night before. Your neck was full with the marks of the girl who you captured. But she doesn’t know, what I know. We took the time admiring each other for what it was...
I constantly wonder if I am good enough for this kind of love.
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You pack your bags and board a train and go into a city where you have never been. It’s a strange place inside your head. The world doesn’t know what you did and there’s a little studio with some space for two. No one knows what its like to say goodbye but you seemed to have the part right on track. We hate the way that the words you say are formed into bitter hate. Sometimes we are left to...
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I wanted to be like you, so I could understand. I tried to be what you wanted and I got pushed away. I didnt know that what you wanted was me to be me, but you didnt show me that it was what mattered.
“Listen to the mustn’ts, child. Listen to the don’ts. Listen to the...”
We drive the cars that are given to us because we are too scared to be honest with what we are. The sun is shinning yet the world is covered in gloomy tears. You left us all here without a reason as to why. How should we take this? As our responsibility? The world is not the same anymore. When I close my eyes your in my dreams. I don’t want to ignore the things that could have been or I wish...
What has our world become? We care more about the latest gossip than the child in need, will you care if we all disappear tomorrow? Its a funny thing when we are all just trying to find a way out. Stranger things have happened, one is lost at sea while he is fighting cancer. We need to find the cure that will bring us back together because I cant see the sunshine without you here by my...
I have been living in this decade for three days. I debated how to end the past one for a while, I wasn’t sure if I was able to let go of all the things that had happened to me. I spent the night enjoying myself, eventually I ended up outside of the house I once called home, it was so different. I had tears in my eyes and my best friend asked me if I was okay and I said yeah, this year I am...
The lamp is the only light on in the house, everything echos as it is filled with nothing but our past memories. We never were too sure what was to be expected because I just couldn’t wait until you would let this all be forgotten. I used to believe that everything happened for a reason which is why I was lead to you, but look at where this has gotten us, do you honestly think that this is...
White Houses.
Wanna pack your bags, Something small Take what you need and we disappear Without a trace we’ll be gone, gone The moon and the stars can follow the car and then when we get to the ocean We gonna take a boat to the end of the world All the way to the end of the world Oh, and when the kids are old enough We’re gonna teach them to fly You and me together, we could do anything, Baby...